[ tsumugi listens intently to him, because if there's anything he can pride himself on it's his ability to reaching out by just hearing them out. his lips tighten into a straight line, thinking over on what to say next. ]
You know what I said to Dazai-san that night? Before I pushed him over to the edge? [ it still hurts to talk about it, but he has to push through this ] I said that we should go home together. He said that we'd only be running away to a different place if we go through it, but we did it anyway. Or rather, I made him do it before I followed suit.
[ he slumps onto the floor, huddling his knees closer to himself as he attempts to curl into a ball. ]
But that's the thing, Hiyori-kun. I didn't have anywhere else I can call home at that point. I'm sure that my parents haven't even noticed that I was gone this entire time, that I was just toiling away at Yumenosaki's library until my legs give up on me. Even if you were disgraced, you'd still have everything while I... never had anything to call my own to begin with.
I can never hate you, though. You should know that by now, that I can never hate anyone who's ever wronged me. I-- I even told Dazai-san that I don't even want anyone to kill Will despite everything. I... I'm the one who's selfish here, to be honest. I'm truly the worst one there is, no matter how many people here would say otherwise.
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You know what I said to Dazai-san that night? Before I pushed him over to the edge? [ it still hurts to talk about it, but he has to push through this ] I said that we should go home together. He said that we'd only be running away to a different place if we go through it, but we did it anyway. Or rather, I made him do it before I followed suit.
[ he slumps onto the floor, huddling his knees closer to himself as he attempts to curl into a ball. ]
But that's the thing, Hiyori-kun. I didn't have anywhere else I can call home at that point. I'm sure that my parents haven't even noticed that I was gone this entire time, that I was just toiling away at Yumenosaki's library until my legs give up on me. Even if you were disgraced, you'd still have everything while I... never had anything to call my own to begin with.
I can never hate you, though. You should know that by now, that I can never hate anyone who's ever wronged me. I-- I even told Dazai-san that I don't even want anyone to kill Will despite everything. I... I'm the one who's selfish here, to be honest. I'm truly the worst one there is, no matter how many people here would say otherwise.