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pandatreasure) wrote2017-12-24 12:44 am
pandatreasure) wrote2017-12-24 12:44 am
GRAVEYARD
[You know you must have died—nothing is ever easy around here, certainly not quick, so you must remember burning, bleeding, falling, dying?
And yet. You're waking up.
Do you recognize it here, once you pick yourself up off of the hard floor, maybe half-strewn across a couch or beanbag chair? This room died, too: you're in the library, good as new and maybe better than that, only barely smelling of burnt paper and you only sometimes kick up ash, just like those old wounds that finished you off only ache every now and again, dully.
The book selection isn't quite the same as you remember it—all the bad erotica that didn't die is missing here, sorry to say, but so are the books on everyone's home worlds. Snoop around enough and behind the librarian's desk, you'll find tablets: one for each participant of the game, and with enough experimentation, you'll find the one that reacts when you press the button. You're already logged into your Recyclr account and can read the feed, but the same rules apply: 140 characters, one tweet a day. The voting app is gone, replaced by a sort of security monitoring kind of app. Characters can view different rooms of the school, or even place a few side by side so they can view a few at a time, and they'll be able to see the living go about their day to day lives. There's even an archive of recordings, but only the important ones: murders, executions, investigations, trial highlight reels, and major events like libraries being burned down. Was watching yourself die once not enough? Boy have I got good news for you!!!
It's kind of exciting that you can go around touching stuff, probably, despite being super dead and vaguely transparent in a way you notice like your own breathing; you don't and then you do and it's all you can think about, but your tangibility only extends to the inanimate: try to touch any of your fellow deceased and you'll find that you just pass right on through like touching cold air.
The windows aren't bolted up with those big metal plates on this side of things, but look out of them anytime and it's just pitch-black and still outside, so that's demoralizing. There is, of course, the door out of the library—but for now it's locked up tight. Whatever is a ghost to do?]
((Recyclr
Offerings/Letters
Day 11
Day 14
Day 16))
And yet. You're waking up.
Do you recognize it here, once you pick yourself up off of the hard floor, maybe half-strewn across a couch or beanbag chair? This room died, too: you're in the library, good as new and maybe better than that, only barely smelling of burnt paper and you only sometimes kick up ash, just like those old wounds that finished you off only ache every now and again, dully.
The book selection isn't quite the same as you remember it—all the bad erotica that didn't die is missing here, sorry to say, but so are the books on everyone's home worlds. Snoop around enough and behind the librarian's desk, you'll find tablets: one for each participant of the game, and with enough experimentation, you'll find the one that reacts when you press the button. You're already logged into your Recyclr account and can read the feed, but the same rules apply: 140 characters, one tweet a day. The voting app is gone, replaced by a sort of security monitoring kind of app. Characters can view different rooms of the school, or even place a few side by side so they can view a few at a time, and they'll be able to see the living go about their day to day lives. There's even an archive of recordings, but only the important ones: murders, executions, investigations, trial highlight reels, and major events like libraries being burned down. Was watching yourself die once not enough? Boy have I got good news for you!!!
It's kind of exciting that you can go around touching stuff, probably, despite being super dead and vaguely transparent in a way you notice like your own breathing; you don't and then you do and it's all you can think about, but your tangibility only extends to the inanimate: try to touch any of your fellow deceased and you'll find that you just pass right on through like touching cold air.
The windows aren't bolted up with those big metal plates on this side of things, but look out of them anytime and it's just pitch-black and still outside, so that's demoralizing. There is, of course, the door out of the library—but for now it's locked up tight. Whatever is a ghost to do?]
((Recyclr
Offerings/Letters
Day 11
Day 14
Day 16))
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He winces for a fraction of a second before his eye goes wide.]
...Threat?
[What threat]
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[gestures toward it]
But before your deaths were announced, he likely wrote it. That he was going to kill one of you.
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Ichigo just groans, and when he speaks again, his voice is low and dangerous.]
...I wish they'd let me kill the bastard yesterday.
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[including maybe justice for Tsumugi-kun. god, he's so tired.]
Next time: avoid playing detective, Ichigo-kun. Logic isn't your strong suit.
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[Did you expect him not to agree with you, Dazai? Because he will.]
I've learned my lesson.
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goes quiet for a long moment because... of course he's hyperaware of the state he left Ichigo in before he died. which is part of the reason he doesn't even look over to him.]
... I suppose that's also partially my fault. I tried to keep an even line between vague and pointed to get past whatever censorship the rodents had on our messages, but apparently it wasn't good enough if people were that skeptical of Hiyori-kun.
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(Ironically, considering who was the one who killed Erika.)
And he didn't know Hiyori that well. All of it made for a potent mix of paranoia and skepticism that came to a massive head, all at once.]
...No. I just wasn't listening. I wasn't -
[He cuts himself off, shoulders slumping.]
...I wasn't ready to consider that it could've been someone I cared about, even though the signs were there.
...Because I didn't want to lose anyone else I cared about.
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[or. well... it's more "I understand", but, it makes sense enough. he did give the spider and the fly warning knowing that Will had to have pulled some of the same "rely on me" moves on any one of them.]
That's how some people survive in these kinds of environments. I can't say I'm unfamiliar with it--from both sides of it, even.
But I am sorry that that sort of betrayal was the reality. Perhaps he wouldn't have manipulated you, necessarily. But it was that sense of trust that he used against Tsumugi-kun to drug him and whisper those insidious thoughts people like Tsumugi-kun and I frequently have to battle against on our own.
He's evidently one of the people who feel that those who have a want to die should die. Even if such things are very conditional and irrational.
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...Do you think I was talking about Graham?
[HE'S SO INCREDULOUS]
I was talking about Akira. I never really trusted Graham from the start.
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well.
thinks for a moment.]
Well, as to that. You shouldn't feel so bad about not realizing it. You're not detective material at all, and Akira-kun actually covered his tracks very well. In fact, if not for your intervention, he might have gotten away with it.
[... wait. that puts the blame on Ichigo. ummm...]
What I mean is... Akira-kun is craftier than you, unfortunately. So you shouldn't feel bad for not realizing it. But by contrast, his nerves couldn't last when confronted by someone he cares for so directly.
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Not that he'll get a chance to anyway.
Still, Dazai's words domake sense, even if they're not exactly what he wanted to hear.]
...Like I said before, it's also because I trusted him.
[And when Ichigo trusts, it's with his whole heart.]
So I didn't even consider that he lied to me. He was there when we found her head, for god's sake. I didn't suspect anything until Kaiba asked me if it was possible for Akira to be covering for Akechi
[Is that
Is that some anger in his voice?
Maybe just a little, but for once it's not focused on himself.]
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Mm... trust is a very delicate thing. Even when it's with the best of intentions... it still hurts when it's broken.
[l-lol. this is why he doesn't trust, Ichigo.]
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[Akira would not be the first person to betray his trust, but he is the first person who got so deep into his heart and then used his trust against him.
He'll need a little bit to work it out - providing someone manages to talk him out of just bottling it up inside of himself.]
...It's...nice talking to you again, Dazai. I missed it.
...And I couldn't talk to you one last time before...
[You fucking died.]
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just painful?
why would anyone miss that?
but somehow, the only giveaway to these thoughts are how he just... barely glances to him and then back down to his see-through feet, brow furrowed.]
I thought about it. Stopping by. But I suppose I was too much of a coward at the time. And I thought I'd have time the next day after Rin-kun talked me down.
[shrugs a bit. murder, man. what can ya do?]
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He nods, slowly.]
It's not like you expected to die that night, so...it's fine. I wasn't really doing that great myself.
[He idly touches his left cheekbone, fingers tracing the tip of his scar.]
But...I don't know. What to do now, I mean.
[He's kind of aimless now, letting it all soak in and not liking the answers he's coming up with in response - and it's making him want to just settle in a beanbag and never move again.]
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but ignoring that thought in favor of... trying not to sigh too heavily. it's not as though he's the person who would have the answers? and besides that, he couldn't even manage to get people to understand basic messages, so...]
... you'll figure it out. Not alone, though. It's not over yet.
[kind of wishes it was but Story Of His Life???]
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Ichigo just nods, if a bit slowly.]
...Don't think I could be alone in here if I tried.
[It's. Such a small place, man...]
...But thank you. You're right - it's not over yet.