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pandatreasure ([personal profile] pandatreasure) wrote2017-12-24 12:44 am

GRAVEYARD

[You know you must have died—nothing is ever easy around here, certainly not quick, so you must remember burning, bleeding, falling, dying?

And yet. You're waking up.

Do you recognize it here, once you pick yourself up off of the hard floor, maybe half-strewn across a couch or beanbag chair? This room died, too: you're in the library, good as new and maybe better than that, only barely smelling of burnt paper and you only sometimes kick up ash, just like those old wounds that finished you off only ache every now and again, dully.

The book selection isn't quite the same as you remember it—all the bad erotica that didn't die is missing here, sorry to say, but so are the books on everyone's home worlds. Snoop around enough and behind the librarian's desk, you'll find tablets: one for each participant of the game, and with enough experimentation, you'll find the one that reacts when you press the button. You're already logged into your Recyclr account and can read the feed, but the same rules apply: 140 characters, one tweet a day. The voting app is gone, replaced by a sort of security monitoring kind of app. Characters can view different rooms of the school, or even place a few side by side so they can view a few at a time, and they'll be able to see the living go about their day to day lives. There's even an archive of recordings, but only the important ones: murders, executions, investigations, trial highlight reels, and major events like libraries being burned down. Was watching yourself die once not enough? Boy have I got good news for you!!!

It's kind of exciting that you can go around touching stuff, probably, despite being super dead and vaguely transparent in a way you notice like your own breathing; you don't and then you do and it's all you can think about, but your tangibility only extends to the inanimate: try to touch any of your fellow deceased and you'll find that you just pass right on through like touching cold air.

The windows aren't bolted up with those big metal plates on this side of things, but look out of them anytime and it's just pitch-black and still outside, so that's demoralizing. There is, of course, the door out of the library—but for now it's locked up tight. Whatever is a ghost to do?]

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[personal profile] cw_suicide 2018-01-27 03:47 am (UTC)(link)
[... i mean... that's real cute though?

ur real cute if you think that's good enough.]

It wasn't Tsumugi-kun's heart he stole, Akira-kun.

It was his will to live.
Edited 2018-01-27 03:48 (UTC)
purrtagonist: (you cannot make stew out of the hands)

[personal profile] purrtagonist 2018-01-27 04:04 am (UTC)(link)
I know.

[he unlinks his hands, curling them into fists against his thighs]

And he should pay for that. For taking advantage of a kid's weakness and manipulating him into murder and suicide.

[but]

If anyone tries to kill him when the game is over, Akechi will be caught in the crossfire.

[and that's the real source of his objection. Akechi's wellbeing]

[personal profile] cw_suicide 2018-01-27 04:06 am (UTC)(link)
I know.

I even considered options to perhaps use him against Will Graham, but if the man's as smart as I think he is, then he'll be burning that bridge before too long and it'd be pointless.
purrtagonist: (The ceiling is not a worthy opponent)

[personal profile] purrtagonist 2018-01-27 04:16 am (UTC)(link)
[HACKLES RAISING TBH. but he lowers them a little because it sounds like Dazai dismissed that plan outright]

. . . I don't care what happens to Graham, ultimately. And I believe Tsumugi should be the one to call that final shot on that one, so I won't give any further opinions.

[he's still all for the change of heart, and doesn't really think that murder will help solve anything, but like. Tsumugi was the real one wronged here? so. . . he would not argue at all against what Tsumugi wanted to do]

But I don't want Akechi to be hurt. He doesn't deserve to be dragged into this.

[personal profile] cw_suicide 2018-01-27 04:36 am (UTC)(link)
[... i mean. got him there on "it should be Tsumugi's call". he doesn't like it but.]

Will Graham already dragged him into it. No matter what we plan to do, he will try to get in the way. You need to be the one to hold him off.
Edited 2018-01-27 04:37 (UTC)
purrtagonist: (Naruto is just your animal companion)

[personal profile] purrtagonist 2018-01-27 04:41 am (UTC)(link)
[that. kind of gets Akira to start, gaze flickering up. "Will Graham already dragged him into it." is that true?]

Hold him off while-- what? He watches people try to kill the one person who was there for him in this shitty place when I couldn't be?

[a hint of frustration is evident on the edges of Akira's words. he's stuck in a conundrum here, and he doesn't know how to solve it]

[personal profile] cw_suicide 2018-01-27 05:16 am (UTC)(link)
As you pointed out, whether we kill him or not is not my decision.
purrtagonist: (i’m not drunk i’m just charismatic)

[personal profile] purrtagonist 2018-01-27 05:17 am (UTC)(link)
[falls quiet at that, leaning forward to rest his elbow on his knee and his chin in his palm]

[hn. . .]

[personal profile] cw_suicide 2018-01-27 06:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[... and it doesn't look like Tsumugi wants to kill him.

well.




he's completely useless, then, isn't he? feels great.]
purrtagonist: (crabs are too kinky for me)

[personal profile] purrtagonist 2018-01-27 06:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[NO, THAT IS FALSE]

[but since Akira is around, he is eavesdropping on that conversation, exhaling a breath of relief once Tsumugi starts talking. once it comes to a lull, he speaks up again]


Death isn't the best or the only way to achieve justice, Dazai.

Or. . . something approaching justice.

[does justice even exist in this place??? Akira's talked about it a lot, but nothing here is "just" by his definition of the word]

[personal profile] cw_suicide 2018-01-27 06:45 pm (UTC)(link)
... there's no justice in this place.

It's just been a big show.

[he just hates that he played into it so much?]
purrtagonist: (Maybe it’s a land octopus)

[personal profile] purrtagonist 2018-01-27 06:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[quiet for a moment. . . before he nods]

You're right.

[they all played into it, and Akira hates that, too]

Let's make it to the end, Dazai.

[personal profile] cw_suicide 2018-01-27 07:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[SIGHS.]

If we must.
purrtagonist: (I’m trying to listen to the flavour!)

[personal profile] purrtagonist 2018-01-27 07:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[mafiadad :(]

[quiet for a moment, reading between the lines, taking cues from the conversation they had yesterday]


You're not failing Tsumugi just because he doesn't want you to kill Graham in the end.

And you didn't fail me, Ichigo and Rin just because we're here.

[personal profile] cw_suicide 2018-01-27 07:20 pm (UTC)(link)
... then what would you call it?

[look. he knows he's bad at understand human things but c'mon. this is pretty straightforward?]
purrtagonist: and go take a bath (stop trying to kill the prisoner)

[personal profile] purrtagonist 2018-01-27 07:30 pm (UTC)(link)
You blaming yourself for the choices others made, which were completely out of your control.

[laying it out simply]

For Graham targeting Tsumugi. For me deciding to kill someone. For Ichigo to out me, and break a rule in the process. For Rin to interfere with our execution.

You tell Tsumugi not to blame himself for your death. But. . . you should take your own advice, too.

[personal profile] cw_suicide 2018-01-27 07:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[. . . how dare you call me out like this.

i don't have a line for something like this?]
purrtagonist: (You’ve been cogblocked!)

[personal profile] purrtagonist 2018-01-27 07:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[HE'S GETTING GOOD AT THIS]

You haven't failed anyone. If anything, Rin, Ichigo and I failed you and Tsumugi.

And if you're wondering what other things you can do to help without killing Graham? Consider this: just being there for Tsumugi this entire time was you helping.

Keep that up. Keep taking the pieces Graham shattered, and build him back up again.

[personal profile] cw_suicide 2018-01-27 07:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[time to stare at the ceiling because, logically, you know you're hearing words you'd say yourself while ultimately knowing that the final decision of anything is still not in your own hands.]

... ah, well... there's not really much else to do at this point.
purrtagonist: (Was that a stealth moo)

[personal profile] purrtagonist 2018-01-27 07:47 pm (UTC)(link)
I know.

[and then, brutally honest, a raw edge to his words]

It sucks to feel powerless.

[personal profile] cw_suicide 2018-01-27 07:53 pm (UTC)(link)
[shrrruuuuugs a bit]

It's not as though I'm unused to it.
purrtagonist: (Any chance that counts as a plant?)

[personal profile] purrtagonist 2018-01-27 07:58 pm (UTC)(link)
That doesn't make it better.

[especially when powerlessness leads to, you know. murder. like it did in Akira's case]

[personal profile] cw_suicide 2018-01-27 07:59 pm (UTC)(link)
It means that I can live through it.

... usually.

[look. there were. extenuating circumstances in this case.]
Edited 2018-01-27 20:01 (UTC)
purrtagonist: We found them in self-defense (We found these things)

[personal profile] purrtagonist 2018-01-27 08:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[THERE SURE WERE. . .]

[offers a tiny, wry smile]


We've still got a lot of work to do, though. Can't let it keep us down now.