You're an idiot. Thanks for locking me in that closet, by the way! Asshole.
I could tell from our conversation that you were going to plan something with someone. I really could. I wanted to press more, but you kept directing the conversation back to Akechi, and I couldn't deny that your concerns on that front were valid.
But I wish I had been a little more stubborn with you. A little more forceful. I don't know. Maybe I could've said something to change your mind? Or maybe there was just no getting through that thick head of yours. At least, not by myself. Maybe with Rin and Ichigo's help, but considering you LOCKED ME IN A CLOSET, getting to them was an impossibility.
But I can't dwell on what ifs or what could have beens. I can only keep going forward, right?
I think a lot about what you told me in our first few days here. About how you said that I can't save everyone. Back then, I knew in my heart that you were right. That thought was pretty suffocating. I'm a realist, but I always want to try to strive for the best ending achievable. I guess I'm just stubborn that way. Incapable of adapting, as Graham put it. As you even put it, once or twice. That makes me pretty unsuitable for games like this one.
DAZAI
I could tell from our conversation that you were going to plan something with someone. I really could. I wanted to press more, but you kept directing the conversation back to Akechi, and I couldn't deny that your concerns on that front were valid.
But I wish I had been a little more stubborn with you. A little more forceful. I don't know. Maybe I could've said something to change your mind? Or maybe there was just no getting through that thick head of yours. At least, not by myself. Maybe with Rin and Ichigo's help, but considering you LOCKED ME IN A CLOSET, getting to them was an impossibility.
But I can't dwell on what ifs or what could have beens. I can only keep going forward, right?
I think a lot about what you told me in our first few days here. About how you said that I can't save everyone. Back then, I knew in my heart that you were right. That thought was pretty suffocating. I'm a realist, but I always want to try to strive for the best ending achievable. I guess I'm just stubborn that way. Incapable of adapting, as Graham put it. As you even put it, once or twice. That makes me pretty unsuitable for games like this one.
But now? I know that you were wrong.
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Take care, Dazai. I'm going to keep looking alive. And I promise you I'm going to start thinking smarter, not harder.
- Akira
P.S. How did you know about me and Ichigo? Were we that obvious?