I never got the chance to thank you for helping me out back when I got hurt. I'm sorry that this is coming late, but thank you. I could tell that helping me took a lot out of you, but you did it anyway. I think that's a sign of strength, you know? I think that maybe, you're a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for.
I don't know if you hear that often. You always struck me as someone kind of meek and uncertain, you know? Someone really weak on the outside. I don't know why that is. But whatever the reason, I just want you to understand that there's definitely a flicker of something more underneath all of that. You're pretty amazing, Tsumugi.
And I really hope that one day, you can realize that, too.
You're an idiot. Thanks for locking me in that closet, by the way! Asshole.
I could tell from our conversation that you were going to plan something with someone. I really could. I wanted to press more, but you kept directing the conversation back to Akechi, and I couldn't deny that your concerns on that front were valid.
But I wish I had been a little more stubborn with you. A little more forceful. I don't know. Maybe I could've said something to change your mind? Or maybe there was just no getting through that thick head of yours. At least, not by myself. Maybe with Rin and Ichigo's help, but considering you LOCKED ME IN A CLOSET, getting to them was an impossibility.
But I can't dwell on what ifs or what could have beens. I can only keep going forward, right?
I think a lot about what you told me in our first few days here. About how you said that I can't save everyone. Back then, I knew in my heart that you were right. That thought was pretty suffocating. I'm a realist, but I always want to try to strive for the best ending achievable. I guess I'm just stubborn that way. Incapable of adapting, as Graham put it. As you even put it, once or twice. That makes me pretty unsuitable for games like this one.
Don't say goodbye. This isn't goodbye. You owe me cooking lessons, and I have every intention of collecting.
Erika is kind of a tough one to understand, you know? I figured that out pretty quickly. She's harsh and blunt and kind of snobby, but underneath that, she's afraid of letting people get close to her. I talked to her after your confession, to make sure she hadn't manipulated you into killing. And although she was insistent about calling you just "her assistant," I could tell there was more to it.
I think Erika considered you a friend, too. As much as she can consider anyone "a friend." I think she'll miss you a lot.
But like I said, this isn't goodbye. I'll see you again, okay? Take care.
You were really interested in the video games when we met, after all! So maybe now you'll have time to play it. I meant to give you this on Trashmas, buuut I couldn't find you, and then I lost track of it, and Tycoon took a dump in my room, and I guess it was under my bed for a week?
...I kind of knew it was under there, anyway, I just didn't want to look. I guess it was me being selfish, wanting to spend more time with you? I bet you have a real princess back home anyway butYou're pretty cool Actually I'm mad at you but it's probably boring and if I was less selfish and thinking more about you instead of thinking about you and me you might not be dead right now!
I can get why Tsumugi couldn't go on but you were always really strong and reliable
I actually looked at the rules and did the stupid math because just not looking at it doesn't mean it doesn't exist. If I survive three more nights, I'll win, and get to go home, and go back to saving the world. There's a bunch of other scouts doing the same thing, though, we get more all the time so I could totally leave to become an idol or get killed by ugly bears if I wanted to. I don't want to, though.
Did you actually want to die or were you so mad you didn't even care? I died when I was 14 and it was kind of like that, there was something I had to make happen, so I did, and I got torn up doing it but I still won. I came back, obv, so maybe it was borrowed time? I didn't get a last kiss from my crush then, either.
If I'd kissed you after all
I'm going to live just so you can't call me out on any of this. Unless I don't in which case forget it, burn this letter, can you even burn letters twice? Don't rip it up that's rude. Eat it or something, like a goat. I'm supposed to be a hero, so there are some people I'm putting ahead of myself. If I can't protect them, I'll quit the Sailors. I can't be a hero if I can't protect anyone, after all.
I want to believe it's really you on the other side talking to us, so I'm hopeful this will make it to you.
Considering our last exchange, I'm not quite sure how to properly start this. I'm sorry. But just wanted to reach to you somehow.
I hope there is someone there with you. I hate that you might be lonely over there. I hate that I let you leave feeling like you were alone; I always will, I'm afraid.
Using the bow and arrows have been an experience. While my skills are not much to be desired, I felt just a little bit closer to you. Even if just a little bit. It might be why I still wanted to use them since then.
In the mean time. I'll keep trying to survive. I feel like it's the least I can do for you, who I didn't protect properly.
I never did get to ask you what you were going to when you returned those nights we got to be together, did we? If I can make it out of here and go home... I will be best I can be to the you in my timeline. You deserve the best, after all. I thought that even before we ended up here.
.... [there looked like a squiggle on the paper, like he was starting to write the sentence ('I lo-') but then stopped. It was lined out and then. he decides to just write it, after all. Next paragraph:]
Because I love you and it doesn't matter if it's the same or not on your end. I miss you. I'll try to write again if you'd have me.
Day 16
TSUMUGI, DAZAI, NILES
TSUMUGI
I don't know if you hear that often. You always struck me as someone kind of meek and uncertain, you know? Someone really weak on the outside. I don't know why that is. But whatever the reason, I just want you to understand that there's definitely a flicker of something more underneath all of that. You're pretty amazing, Tsumugi.
And I really hope that one day, you can realize that, too.
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Either way? Keep your chin up, Tsumugi. We're not done on this side just yet. And I'm not about to give up on you guys.
- Akira.
DAZAI
I could tell from our conversation that you were going to plan something with someone. I really could. I wanted to press more, but you kept directing the conversation back to Akechi, and I couldn't deny that your concerns on that front were valid.
But I wish I had been a little more stubborn with you. A little more forceful. I don't know. Maybe I could've said something to change your mind? Or maybe there was just no getting through that thick head of yours. At least, not by myself. Maybe with Rin and Ichigo's help, but considering you LOCKED ME IN A CLOSET, getting to them was an impossibility.
But I can't dwell on what ifs or what could have beens. I can only keep going forward, right?
I think a lot about what you told me in our first few days here. About how you said that I can't save everyone. Back then, I knew in my heart that you were right. That thought was pretty suffocating. I'm a realist, but I always want to try to strive for the best ending achievable. I guess I'm just stubborn that way. Incapable of adapting, as Graham put it. As you even put it, once or twice. That makes me pretty unsuitable for games like this one.
But now? I know that you were wrong.
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Take care, Dazai. I'm going to keep looking alive. And I promise you I'm going to start thinking smarter, not harder.
- Akira
P.S. How did you know about me and Ichigo? Were we that obvious?
FUTAYO
Erika is kind of a tough one to understand, you know? I figured that out pretty quickly. She's harsh and blunt and kind of snobby, but underneath that, she's afraid of letting people get close to her. I talked to her after your confession, to make sure she hadn't manipulated you into killing. And although she was insistent about calling you just "her assistant," I could tell there was more to it.
I think Erika considered you a friend, too. As much as she can consider anyone "a friend." I think she'll miss you a lot.
But like I said, this isn't goodbye. I'll see you again, okay? Take care.
- Akira.
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CAIUS
...I kind of knew it was under there, anyway, I just didn't want to look. I guess it was me being selfish, wanting to spend more time with you?
I bet you have a real princess back home anyway butYou're pretty coolActually I'm mad at you but it's probably boring and if I was less selfish and thinking more about you instead of thinking about you and me you might not be dead right now!I can get why Tsumugi couldn't go on but you were always really strong and reliable
I actually looked at the rules and did the stupid math because just not looking at it doesn't mean it doesn't exist. If I survive three more nights, I'll win, and get to go home, and go back to saving the world. There's a bunch of other scouts doing the same thing, though, we get more all the time so I could totally leave to become an idol or get killed by ugly bears if I wanted to. I don't want to, though.
Did you actually want to die or were you so mad you didn't even care? I died when I was 14 and it was kind of like that, there was something I had to make happen, so I did, and I got torn up doing it but I still won. I came back, obv, so maybe it was borrowed time? I didn't get a last kiss from my crush then, either.
If I'd kissed you after allI'm going to live just so you can't call me out on any of this. Unless I don't in which case forget it, burn this letter, can you even burn letters twice? Don't rip it up that's rude. Eat it or something, like a goat. I'm supposed to be a hero, so there are some people I'm putting ahead of myself. If I can't protect them, I'll quit the Sailors. I can't be a hero if I can't protect anyone, after all.
Wish me luck!
NISKA
NILES
I want to believe it's really you on the other side talking to us, so I'm hopeful this will make it to you.
Considering our last exchange, I'm not quite sure how to properly start this. I'm sorry. But just wanted to reach to you somehow.
I hope there is someone there with you. I hate that you might be lonely over there. I hate that I let you leave feeling like you were alone; I always will, I'm afraid.
Using the bow and arrows have been an experience. While my skills are not much to be desired, I felt just a little bit closer to you. Even if just a little bit. It might be why I still wanted to use them since then.
In the mean time. I'll keep trying to survive. I feel like it's the least I can do for you, who I didn't protect properly.
I never did get to ask you what you were going to when you returned those nights we got to be together, did we? If I can make it out of here and go home... I will be best I can be to the you in my timeline. You deserve the best, after all. I thought that even before we ended up here.
.... [there looked like a squiggle on the paper, like he was starting to write the sentence ('I lo-') but then stopped. It was lined out and then. he decides to just write it, after all. Next paragraph:]
Because I love you and it doesn't matter if it's the same or not on your end. I miss you. I'll try to write again if you'd have me.
-Corrin